Friday, February 29, 2008

Week 6 recap

Despite having a kind of rough week with the cold, I managed to lose about 2.5 pounds this week. So that makes for almost 20 pounds so far-19.5 really, but I like to round up ;).

I've been working hard at keeping my protein level up, and making sure to keep eating even though I don't really feel like I'm hungry right now. My nutritionist said that I'd done a really great job considering I haven't been well. She really stressed the importance of eating enough protein and carbs when I'm sick to keep my body from feeding on itself. It sounds kind of counterintuitive, as I want my body to use the fat stores, but the body doesn't burn fat alone. And she doesn't want me to backtrack on the muscle that I've been building up with my workouts.

Anyway, we decided not to introduce beans and legumes this next week, since I didn't really get a full week of adding back in dairy products that I can have, such as soy milk and yogurt.

I met with my counselor today for the third time since I started the program. She told me how great I'm doing so far, and asked how I'm feeling about all of the changes in my life. I told her that despite the sickenss this week, I've been feeling really great and I'm finally sleeping well. I went over my issues with being sick so much last year, and we discussed how important sleep is to a healthy immune system, weight loss, stress management, and concentration. I think it's a really good thing that I started this when I did, or my health could have become an even bigger mess than it already was. I've found that I actually need to exercise to sleep well at night. I don't know why I never really put those two things together before. I guess because I was always tired and wanted to sleep, but just not at normal times, I didn't really get that I needed to burn some energy to get to the right phases of sleep.

Recently, I had an important realization about how I've been living my life thus far. I can say that I've managed to keep moving up in life, and I've worked hard to do so. My job is rewarding, but often stressful and I'd deal with that by indulging in food. Additionally, rewards for my successes were often food-related. And because I have a rather healthy social life, a lot of my time with friends and family revolved around food. So, every week there was something special to celebrate or make an exception for. After awhile, exceptions were the rule and there was no signal to me to say no to another helping or piece of cake until my clothes became uncomfortable and my health started to fail.

I've now made a very conscious decision to only make exceptions when they actually apply to me - and only if I'm willing to do the work to make them worthwhile. For example, I'll have cake on my birthday (well, not this year, but in the future) but not for other people's birthdays. Once a year, I can have cake. Oh, and a piece of my wedding cake, which will be my only cake this year anyway. Holidays like Thanksgiving and Christmas, I will allow myself to indulge in the food and festivities on that day-not the entire season-and I will make a tradeoff. Either I only do one platefull, or I go to the gym an extra day that week (or even that day). A co-worker told me that the gym has 90-minute workout sessions for the holidays for this exact purpose.

And when I indulge a few times a year, I'll do it knowing that it may trigger some cravings afterward, but I will know that I can get back on plan and those cravings will go away. And in the end, I may figure out that it's just not worth it to have the cravings and withdrawals, and I'll stay on plan all the time. After working this hard to lose weight and get healthy again, I know that I don't want to backslide, so that will always be a strong impetus to my staying healthy. And my blog serves as an important tool for me to refer to whenever I might feel weak or wonder why I ever signed up for this in the first place. And believe me, there are times when I think of all of the time and work I've done thus far, and how much further I have to go, and I wonder if I can make it. But, I know that I can, and I will. I made a commitment to do this, and I don't take that lightly.

Wednesday, February 27, 2008

Cough, cough, sniff

Sick...everyone around me has been sick recently, so I suppose my time was coming. Since I started the 20/20 program, I've definitely been a lot healthier and made it through January and February relatively unscathed. I had a slight flu-like thing for a couple of days but nothing that kept me out of work or down for very long.

Yesterday, I woke up and was pretty tired, and had some head congestion and a bloody nose. So, I slept in a little bit. Once I got up and took a shower, I started feeling better, so I headed into work and worked late last night to make up for the couple of morning hours that I took to rest up. Then last night, I went into the gym and did a half an hour of cardio but I didn't really push it.

Today, I woke up and was definitely worse. My head was stuffy and my throat was irritated. I decided to call in sick this morning, and worked this afternoon from home for a bit before the nausea set in. So, I finally decided to give in and cancel my training appointment. I could probably push through with a head cold, but nausea and stomach problems? No way. No one wants to see me puke all over the cardio theater.

I emailed my nutritionist to see what I can eat, since my usual sick diet would include many things not on plan (including chicken noodle soup, tea with honey, 7-Up, and crackers). She emailed me a recipe for program-friendly chicken soup, and some other things that I can eat to help me get better. I just wish that I actually felt hungy. I know that I need to get up and make the soup, but it seems like so much work right now.

OK, enough whining. I should make my way into the kitchen and start making the soup...

Tuesday, February 26, 2008

Cheese review

As I talked about in one of my previous posts, I recently got to the stage in the 20/20 program where I can have cheese. Because of my cow-cheese allergy, I stocked up on some wonderful goat cheeses, and decided to try a rice cheese and an almond cheese. I was very skeptical about the non-dairy cheeses. After my experience with Boca burgers, I wasn't really sure that I'd be able to get past the fact that they aren't really cheese from some kind of animal. And my vegetarian friends mostly told me that I shouldn't expect anything wonderful, so I wasn't getting my hopes up.

Tonight, I finally decided to give the non-dairy cheeses a try. First, the rice cheese: Galaxy Nutritional Food Rice Slices in Mozzarella Flavor. I can say that I'm definitely not a fan of this one, although I'm not sure whether it's because I don't like the cheese or because I don't like Mozzarella. Because I haven't had any kind of cow-cheese in so long, I have no idea whether this tastes like actual Mozzarella or not, and thus I don't even know whether I'd like cow-based Mozzarella. And L. isn't here tonight, so I couldn't pop a slice in his mouth to see how it compares to the real thing. I can say that it was a bit rubbery in texture (but I think that all cheeses in sliced form are rubbery looking anyway) and it was kind of bland in flavor. Definitely not an exciting specimen for my tastebuds. I'll have to get L. to try it out this weekend and see what his thoughts are.

Second, the Lisanatti Almond cheese in Jalapeno Jack flavor. I was pleasantly surprised by this one. It had a nice kick to it, and the texture was close to the hard goat cheeses that I've been eating. I doled out an ounce of it onto my plate with my chicken and munched it right down. Next time I hit Whole Foods, I'll have to pick up another flavor and see what it's like.

Now for the goat cheeses. Whole Foods really opened up a new world for me as far as goat cheese goes. They carry far more than the regular goat cheese that bears a resemblance to cream cheese or the crumbles (both of which I also love, and stocked up on). I picked up a block of hard goat cheese in Monterray Jack flavor, and one with various herbs. The Monterray Jack one is made by Greenbank Farms in nearby Preston, Washington. Again, I have no clue whether this is close to cow-based Monterray Jack cheese, but I couldn't care less. It's got such an amazing flavor and it's such a treat. They have a goat cheddar, so I plan on getting that next time and giving it a try. The other cheese is called Purple Haze, and it is made by Cypress Grove Chevre in California. Purple Haze has lavender and fennel added to it, and it's delicious. It's a little slice of heaven in the evenings.

Thursday, February 21, 2008

Week 5 recap

I'm coming to the end of my fifth week on the 20/20 program, and time is just flying. It seems like I just started and I'm already 1/3 of the way through phase one.

Today I met with both my 20/20 doctor and my nutritionist. My trainer, J., took updated measurements on Monday and gave the results to my doctor to discuss with me. Since I already went one size down in pants, I had a pretty good idea that things were going in the right direction, but it was nice to see it on paper. Here are the results:
* Weight: lost 16.5 pounds
* Blood pressure: went from 134/88 to 124/80
* Chest girth: lost 1.75"
* Waist girth: lost 1.4"
* Hip girth: lost 2.25"
* Bicep girth: lost .75"
* Thigh girth: 1.75"
* Body Mass Index: went from 33.7 to 31.6

I felt so excited when I walked out of that appointment. I wandered into the women's workout room, and hopped on the elliptical machine with a newfound happiness. After a half an hour, I went back to the locker room and took a shower before meeting with my nutritionist. Let me tell you - it feels unbelievably wonderful to actually have the whole gym towel fit around my body. When I started, the towel was pretty wee but now I can actually get it all the way around and fasten it. Wahoo!

When I met with my nutritionist, C., she was ecstatic about my progress. I weighed in and I've lost five pounds over the last week. When she looked back through my diet log, she gave me props for really working hard on getting more protein into my diet. As she looked through each day, she commented on how I'd really done a good job at eating the right combinations of food at the right times in the day. She didn't even worry about my one "bad" day on Saturday where I went over my fat range - I'm allowed 30-45 grams and messed up because I was trying to get a lot of extra protein in my diet so got 54 grams that day. She said that the typical American eats 150 grams of fat a day, so my one day mistake wasn't even a big deal in the big picture. So, that was cool.

This week I get back dairy products. Because of my cow-dairy allergy, that means that I get soy-based and rice-based dairy products. I'm so excited to get soy milk back. That means I'll be able to have a cup of Chai tea with vanilla soy milk for a treat. I can also have soy yogurt, which is usually pretty gross but there is one brand that is so good and I just need to find it at Whole Foods or PCC. And I can still eat my wonderful high-protein Greek yogurt, which is cow-dairy based but because of the amount of bacteria in it, it doesn't bother me like cow cheese or milk.

I'm definitely on my way!

Sunday, February 17, 2008

Week 4 recap

I lost another two pounds in week four, which makes for a total of 12 pounds lost. I'm happy about the weight loss so far, but I still have a long ways to go and sometimes that feels frustrating. But, when I see a pound bag of sugar or something similar, I try to remind myself that I was carrying twelve additional pounds on my body and that this is a huge success even thus far.

I'm doing pretty well on the diet front. My nutritionist urged me to work harder at getting more protein into my diet, especially on the weekends. So, I really focused on that this weekend. I went over my fat range a little bit on Saturday by trying to get enough protein in, so I watched that today and tried to figure out how to get protein in without a lot of added fat. It's all very tricky to get it right.

My workouts have been going really well and I got up to 68 seconds on the plank. So, J. changed it up a bit and had my lifting up one arm and placing it on the opposite shoulder while I held the plank position. It was quite difficult.

Tomorrow, J. will take my updated measurements and we'll see how that goes. I can already tell that my body has changed. This weekend, I pulled out a pair of jeans one size down from my current jeans (which were getting really loose), and they fit! I was so excited to see that. And J. asked the other day whether I'd gotten a new workout shirt, and I told him that I hadn't - it was the same shirt I'd worn on and off throughout the program so far. He said that it looked like it was a lot looser, and it is. So, I'm definitely on my way.

Today, L. and I took in a nice couples massage at a local salon. We had a 50-minute massage with chocolate-scented lotion, a scalp massage with peppermint oil, a chocolate-sugar scrub, and a swiss shower. After all of the hard work that we've both been doing to lose weight, it was a nice indulgence for both of us. My muscles and his muscles were both very happy afterward.

Next weekend will be interesting. I'm going over to eastern Washington to visit my family and celebrate my 30th birthday a bit early. My cousin and I have our 30th birthdays a month apart, so we're celebrating in the middle with everyone. I already know that I need to plan my meals for the weekend, and pack the kinds of healthy snacks that I can eat while we're away. I also know that I won't be able to have cake (probably the only birthday ever where I won't have cake), so I'll bring my yummy Greek high-protein yogurt and some fruit for my dessert. We'll put a candle in that :)

Monday, February 11, 2008

Yes we can

This is a very inspiring video for Barack Obama featuring musicians and celebrities singing his words of hope for our future. It's well worth the watch. I'm bummed that I missed his rally on Friday in Seattle. I heard from several people and reports that it was nothing short of extraordinary. My fingers are crossed.


Then, a humorous look at the "alternative":

Good Lord, help us...

Sunday, February 10, 2008

My taxes are filed

Tonight I decided to file my taxes online with TurboTax while I watched the Grammy Awards. If the government accepts my filed return, I'll be getting a healthy refund this year. This is in part because I have extra money taken out of each paycheck to make sure that I won't owe at the end of the year. I'll never forget the first year that my ex-husband and I were married. We weren't having enough tax taken out (unknown to us) and we got quite a surprise in tha first joint return. Also, I love owning a condo because you get to itemize deductions for the interest you pay on the loan. That makes quite a difference.

So, I'll dump this little sum into my savings account and put it toward one of two things: the wedding or the upcoming assessment on my condo. My building is coming up on 25 years, and they are going to issue a special assessment this year to replace the siding, put in energy-efficient vinyl windows, and address some problems with some of the duct work (for the dryer exhausts and chimneys). I don't yet know how much the assessment will be, so I'm not sure whether I'll be able to pay for it outright or whether I'll need to take out a loan. Combined with the wedding expenses and a new house for L. and me, it will be an expensive year. I'll be happy if I break even or have to take out only a small loan. The other interesting thing will be figuring out how I can rent out my condo if the assessment-related work is going on when I have a renter in my place. Many things to figure out...

Saturday, February 09, 2008

Working out the flactoid muscle

I shared this clip with my trainer and he cracked up. Now we joke that I'm working out my flactoids...

Week 3 recap

It was my third week on the 20/20 Lifestyles program, and after a relatively slow week last week, I stepped it up a notch this week. I focused on eating earlier in the day and spreading my calories out more throughout the day. That seemed to work well, as I weighed in yesterday and lost four pounds over the last week! So that is a total of ten pounds in the last three weeks!!!

I worked out with my trainer on Monday, Wednesday, and Friday and J. had me add the stair climber into my regular cardio routine. I did a full ten minutes tonight, and then switched to the elliptical machine for 25 minutes. I also increased the intensity of my elliptical routine to the second level.

In addition, J. added some additional weight into my arm and leg weight routines, and focused more on the plank. I've actually gotten to holding the plank for 40 seconds without dying, and I started in week one at two sets of ten seconds each. He says that when I get to a full minute, we'll start mixing it up and doing it with one arm or leg, etc. I laughed a little, but the truth is that I'm already doing things that I'd have laughed about three weeks ago. So, it's definitely possible.

I met with my nutritionist and individual counselor this week also. I got cheese back this week, so L. and I went to Whole Foods tonight to get some good goat cheeses and meats. I am also going to try a couple of non-cow cheeses made from almonds and rice. My nutritionist swears that these particular brands are good, and don't taste like rubber, but I'm a bit skeptical. However, she's a vegetarian and eats them all the time, so it's worth a try. The weird thing is going be actually eating cheese again. I haven't eating anything but goat cheese for years and years and years. I had to ask L. what the difference between the flavors of mozerella, pepper jack, swiss, etc. are. So, on top of whether these cheeses made from almonds and rice actually taste good, I don't even know whether I like the flavors of cheese that they're supposed to taste like. If it's anything like Boca burgers, I will not be happy. I don't really like things that are masquerading around like a different food. I found the whole Boca burger thing really gross, and I've never tried one again. I'd much rather have a Garden Burger because at least it's not trying to taste like beef.

Other than that, I can tell that I'm starting to get some muscle definition going on, and I was surprised when I got out of the shower the other day actually saw muscles in my back. I told J. that I'm getting ripped :) I've also decided to name the plank after him as J.'s torture exercise.

Sunday, February 03, 2008

The Patriots really are losers in the Super Bowl

Those who know me, know that I'm not a huge sports person. I don't follow any of the major sports, so it's a rare day that I'll actually watch a game on TV. About the closest I get to following anything is the Seattle Mariners, mostly because I like going to a few games each year at Safeco with friends and family. But even then, I don't tend to follow the whole season unless they do something spectatular like make the playoffs or something.

Anyway, Super Bowl is one of the few days where I give in to sports frenzy and actually watch a football game. Usually this consists of being mildly interested in the game, more interested in the commercials, and using the majority of the time to catch up on some serious napping. But, I digress.

Tonight, L. and I watched the NY Giants and the NE Patriots play the Super Bowl. I missed the majority of the game due to a bad headache, which led me to taking some Naproxin Sodium and a long nap. But I woke up for the last few minutes of the game and watched the amazing comeback of the Giants. Now, I didn't really have any preference in which team actually won this game. The only familiar player was Peyton Manning's brother of the NY Giants, and the only reason I know who Peyton Manning is is because of last year's Super Bowl. So, I watched the end of the game tonight and was absoultely astounded when the Pats head coach, Bill Belichick, actually left the game before it was technically done. And then the rest of the Pats just headed back into the locker rooms with their tails between their legs. No shaking of hands, or half-hearted congratulations to the winners. Nothing.

Now, I'm not saying that the Pats shouldn't be disappointed. They had an undefeated season and they lost the Super Bowl. But at least they made it to the Super Bowl in the first place. And come on guys - it's called sportsmanship! You don't just crawl away like a bunch of infants. Maybe Huggies diapers should sponser their team in the future. Even though I wasn't actually rooting for one team or the other, I was glad in the end that the Giants won. Because the Patriots showed themselves to be the true losers. Not because they lost the Super Bowl, but because their head coach and the team demonstrated such poor sportsmanship.

Friday, February 01, 2008

Week 2 recap

I worked out with my trainer, J. on Wednesday, Thursday, and Friday this week. I can definitely say that I'm sore and I feel muscles that I forgot I had. Each day we've done about 35 minutes of cardio work, and then moved onto strength training. I've done arm weights the last three days, and he switched up the leg weight exercises a bit over the last few days. Today we did arms and focused on ab work.

I was kind of bummed out last night because I weighed in yesterday and had only lost an additional .4 pounds over the last week. Yes, that decimal is on purpose. So, I was pretty upset about that. But, my dietician pointed out a couple of things that I need to focus on with my diet, namely eating more often and trying to fit everything in throughout the day rather than eating my dinner and snack so late. So, that will help. Because I need to focus on this a bit more, I decided to hold off on adding cheese into my diet. So, we'll give that a go next week.

We also talked about how the body is designed to try and keep weight on. And because of all of the workouts and such, the weight may have more to do with muscle than fat at this point. I can definitely tell that things are starting to fit better, so that's nice. It's just always so good to see the scale move when you're doing so much work.

I'm proud that I didn't lose it last night. I felt more resolve and decided that I just need to work harder to push past this point. Normally, I'd grab some fries or a piece of bread and jam, and make myself feel better with food. But last night I came home and did my diet, took my shower, had a little cry, and then went to bed early. I woke up this morning feeling much better. This is definitely one of the most difficult things I've done in my life, but very rewarding.