Slip, sliding away

So, I'm done with the 20/20 program now and I need to schedule my last appointment for lab work and final meeting with my 20/20 doctor. Overall, it was a great success. I lost 46 pounds, 40 of which I've maintained.

However, now that the program is over, I am struggling a bit to keep up with everything. I think part of it is due to the fact that the wedding is a month away, so everything seems to be going faster and faster. But part of it is because I'm not really following the lifestyle, so a lot of my cravings and such are back. It's very frustrating. And now my workouts with my trainer are down to once per week, since I decided to hire J. to keep pushing me with the weight training and keep me accountable. But maintaining the other two to three days of working out on my own is difficult.

I felt pretty desperate tonight when I broke into both the popcorn and hot chocolate. We've been eating out a lot, and I'm not making great choices. I really need to get myself back on track. When I make smarter choices, the cravings do start going away and I of course feel better about everything all around. So, I just need to remember that. Tonight, I made a healthy lunch and packed everything up neatly in the fridge. I'm going to try and get up early enough to make some eggs, and toast with peanut butter so that I at least have a healthy breakfast and lunch squared away. And I've got to get the carbs back down to 200 calories a day or less so that I get rid of some of this water weight.

So, tomorrow is a new day and I know that the next few days are going to be a bit miserable again while I work back off of the carbs, treats, and such and I'll need to devote more time to cooking and planning my eating again so that I don't get off track. Here we go again...